This is day 5 of 31 Days of Finding Joy in Depression. Yesterday, I shared the second part of my story of discovering that I had depression. Today, let’s face the denial.
disbelief in the existence or reality of a thing; refusal to recognize or acknowledge; a disowning or disavowalfrom dictionary.com
It seems easier to deny the existence of depression than to deal with it. The masks we wear are easier to keep on. The comfortable actions and the fake smiles that say, “I’m fine” are easier to put forth.
After discussion my dysthymia with my doctor, we determined that I’d probably been dealing with it since I was a teenager. I’d probably been silently suffering for at least 15 years, if not longer. I muddled through on my own for way too long. I know that there are people who could see it. Obviously, my doctor saw it. I know my husband saw it. He and I had even talked about it. But I couldn’t do anything. Or maybe, I wouldn’t do anything.
But in the end I was the only one who could take the step towards healing. Remaining in denial gets you no where. It certainly doesn’t bring healing. You can only run so long, so far before you have to stop. That’s true with denial too. Sooner or later, you’ll come to a breaking point. You will be brought to a place where you will face reality. Your reaction and next steps are your choice when you reach that point.
Do you hide from your depression, denying its existence? If you’re denying the existing of depression, take the first step to healing by asking someone for help.
If you deal with depression, please comment and share your journey too. If you’re a blogger, you can use the button and code below to share your story and link back on your blog. Feel free to leave links to your posts in the comments area.
I’m linking up with The Nester and others who are writing 31 posts this month on various topics. I?m not a doctor or a counselor and this is not intended to be medical advice. This is simply the story of my experience with depression.